My Very Loving Indian Parents

Before starting to write my first post on this blog i was searching for a good proverb or great saying to help me proceed with my post and i came across a chinese proverb.

Chinese Proverb said: “To understand your parents’ love you must raise children yourself.”

After having attained a age when you know what you think and you speak what you think and you desire to understand why you think what you think,in short when you achieve the heights of your consciousness…you start searching for answers to everything around you.

The first thing i want to ask myself  is that- why my parents love me so much and is it only my parents that love their child so much or all the parents around the world love their children as much as my parents do .

I am a resident of a small town near not so globalized city called Bhopal and i belong to a typical Indian middle class family which somehow managed to get this tag maybe two decades ago when i was in starting years of my life.Both my father and mother are in government service and they have been there since 2o to 25 years working continuously each and everyday trying to make ends meet but not with great ease, after spending for the best available education for me and my younger sister (also will like to mention about this computer where i am writing this post which they got me 2 years back and supporting my expensive interest into music).

As in any other Indian middle class family residing in any tier 2 or tier 3 city in India ,which thinks that if their son or daughter becomes a doctor or a engineer the whole progeny will attain a divine glory .So in order to get my family the so called glorification i became a doctor .I have finished my MBBS and i am taking some time off living with my parents from past 6 months after a long gape of 5 and a half years in Chennai pursuing my medicine degree.These 6 months have been very important to understand this world better and to decide my further course in life.

After having observed my family and the social structure around me with a keen eye of a doctor, gifted to me by my so called noble profession ,i have come to a conclusion that people around me seem to be so much innocent and or may be just so much ignorant about the rest of the world with the only source of information influencing their lives being television which frames an altogether delusive picture of this world.

Now i am in a part of the world which is in a transitional phase -from the driving force of life being just intuition to the driving force evolving into a better force called rationalism -from an Indian way of living to an increasingly global way of living….and in midst of all this i feel as if i am a pillar post on the road which takes a steep turn and i am actually observing it do that everyday.

My main concerns in this situation is  that my parents love me so much so that it makes me anxious sometimes when i think that will i ever be able to return all that love they give me when this wave of increasing economic competition and a modern way of living shears into my life.